Can you feel stuck and free at the same time?
What happens when you truly follow your calling
Hello my lovely readers,
how are you? Wherever you are in the world, I hope you are doing great. Today I realised that it would mean the world to me to hear from you… To get a glimpse of who you are and what you are doing to live a life on your own terms. I am also curious how you are handling life at the moment. Personally I found this year pretty tough, but as I am sitting in my kitchen writing while the sun warms me, I feel a sense of peace and see that all that I have moved through made me make a very powerful decision last week (and I truly hope that I made this decision for the last time in my life;-). I decided that from now on, I am a writer and will not do anything else anymore in my business.
The last year I have been experimenting (again) with all kinds of products, services and activities in my business. There was a moment a year ago that I figured that I had something valuable to teach others, so I created courses to help people and focused on selling courses instead of focussing on writing and selling my writing.
What happened when I allowed myself to be a writer?
It felt freeing to make this decision… It felt right, but at the same time I felt completely frozen. I just couldn’t do anything for a couple of days. It seemed like my body was in a total shock after making this decision, and did not want to move forward or backward ;-).
I guess my body was realising that I made this decision for the last time in my life, and it was telling me to slow it down. To not go in overdrive and make all kinds of big changes overnight. Because this is what I have done so many times in my life. I think I want something, and I immediately go for it, because it feels like I am on a tight schedule. But time is just a construct, so I don’t have to hurry. Especially now when my client portfolio reflects my decision, I only need to move forward in a rhythm that suits me and the season we are in.
So, I slowed it down, after two days the joy returned, and I saw myself working like I hadn’t in a very long time.
A life full of obstacles?
This is the true thing about untaming yourself… You are going to make decisions that will question your status quo. You have to be bold and brave to step into the light and show your gifts. You have to tell the world, this is who I truly am.
This comes with all kinds of obstacles, fears and pain. But after reading this Love letter by Elizabeth Lesser, I start to realise that this is exactly what you choose to feel in a human body. It all comes down to truly feeling, experiencing and not ignoring things.
The good thing is that when you move through the difficulties and be true and honest with yourself, you know there is light at the end of the tunnel, even though you might not see the end of the tunnel yet. It is there. You know it.
So wherever you are right now on your journey, whether you feel light or darkness or a dull grey phase. Change is coming to you.
And know that you can always change your course. That there is always the opportunity to bend in another direction if that feels right. You really don’t have to explain this to anyone. You can just do it and don’t care what others think. They think your crazy anyway when you decide to take a different approach than most people do.
My wish for the world
As a writer I have the opportunity to do a lot with my words. I can teach, I can inspire, I can move, I can even bore you (which I hope is the last thing I do with my writing though ;-).
I truly believe that stories will help us through this era of pain and destruction and moves us into a live where there is a balance between the feminine and masculine, where there is more love and less war, where there are women taking the lead from their true femininity and where ego’s slowly start to dissolve. So that all men and women, can lead from a place of love.
Inspiration for a wintery day:
Read this inspiring short book, Being Woman, about the pleasure of being a woman written by my good friend Nicole Olsthoorn
Read Cassandra Speaks by Elizabeth Lesser that is now read by the Rebel Readers Book Club on
by .Listen to the podcast Opening the high heart Chakra of the world, on how to balance the masculine and feminine in yourself, so the world becomes more balanced as well, also available on YouTube.
Read Women who run with the wolves, by Clarissa Pinkola Estes.
Or make yourself a nice cup of cacao with the beautiful cacao from Pure Kakaw, my favorite cacao brand in the world! Or listen to this podcast about cacao with me and Leonie Emma Roxs.