‘Go for it,’ the voice told me. I tried to challenge her and asked her what she meant, but she told me I already knew. Of course I knew. She was right. I was allowed to go for it, but I was too afraid to do so. That’s why I was spending a lot of time with friends instead of going for what I truly desired.
When I stepped out of my meditation I went back to bed (as it was in the middle of the night) and had some strange dreams connected to the story. The next morning I woke up agitated, unfocused and scared. Not a great place to be. This then turned into anger, that I luckily did not express to the one I thought had made me angry 😉.
Because it was no ones fault. I don’t even know why I was angry, it was just there. Finally I was able to just let it be anger. No blaming, no running away. I allowed myself to be angry.
A couple of hours later when I was visiting the gardens of Achilleon (also known as the Sisi palace) I felt the anger subside and realised what was going on.
There is one thing that I desire deeply. But I am extremely afraid to go there. It is an old mechanism, where I am hiding in a corner too afraid to be the odd one out. Because even though I am surrounded by people who completely understand me and get inspired by my writings, there are times that I wonder what I am doing here and why.
But the thing is, I can’t stop it.
Even though it might be too much at times, I don’t think I can live without sharing my stories.
I wonder if you can relate to this. Are there moments in your life where you start questioning everything? Doubting what the hell you are doing here? And why?
Luckily I have my resources to get back to myself quite quickly these days. I know when something is off and how to get back to feeling what I truly want and believe in. And maybe more important; see that everything is just the way it should be at this point in my life.
My life is incredibly good at the moment. So when fear takes over, the most important thing is to see where I came from. How much my life has changed in the last 12 months and how good it is to be alive.
I would love to hear from you, how you navigate these storms.
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‘Go for it,’ the voice told me. I tried to challenge her and asked her what she meant, but she told me I already knew. Of course I knew. She was right. I was allowed to go for it, but I was too afraid to do so. That’s why I was spending a lot of time with friends instead of going for what I truly desired.
When I stepped out of my meditation I went back to bed (as it was in the middle of the night) and had some strange dreams connected to the story. The next morning I woke up agitated, unfocused and scared. Not a great place to be. This then turned into anger, that I luckily did not express to the one I thought had made me angry 😉.
Because it was no ones fault. I don’t even know why I was angry, it was just there. Finally I was able to just let it be anger. No blaming, no running away. I allowed myself to be angry.
A couple of hours later when I was visiting the gardens of Achilleon (also known as the Sisi palace) I felt the anger subside and realised what was going on.
There is one thing that I desire deeply. But I am extremely afraid to go there. It is an old mechanism, where I am hiding in a corner too afraid to be the odd one out. Because even though I am surrounded by people who completely understand me and get inspired by my writings, there are times that I wonder what I am doing here and why.
But the thing is, I can’t stop it.
Even though it might be too much at times, I don’t think I can live without sharing my stories.
I wonder if you can relate to this. Are there moments in your life where you start questioning everything? Doubting what the hell you are doing here? And why?
Luckily I have my resources to get back to myself quite quickly these days. I know when something is off and how to get back to feeling what I truly want and believe in. And maybe more important; see that everything is just the way it should be at this point in my life.
My life is incredibly good at the moment. So when fear takes over, the most important thing is to see where I came from. How much my life has changed in the last 12 months and how good it is to be alive.
I would love to hear from you, how you navigate these storms.